May Favorites

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Who’s ready for may favorites of the month?! Get it, may instead of my? Yeah, I know…LAME!

Music

“Without music, life would be a mistake”- Friedrich Nietzsche
Ugh, is this true or what? Music makes everything, for the most part, better. My monthly obsession is Lewis Capaldi. Oh-my-goodness does his music give me the feels. His lyrics hit me right in the heart.
It’s great listening to him, but also watching his personal videos and interviews. Here’s this guy with a heavenly voice and he’s such a GOOF! A very funny goof.

One of my new favorites of his is One:

Facebook Page

There’s nothing like scrolling through your Facebook and seeing a post that speaks to your soul. Okay, that’s a little dramatic, but you know what I mean. Sometimes, it’s nice to know others feel the same as you do.
I know some of these posts have helped me get through the day and even the night.

Check out Wordables page if you’re seeking some wisdom or inspiration! Click here.

Gaming

Okay, so this one is for all my nerdy peeps who like to button smash the night away. Yeah, that’s right, I’m a gamer. Not a very good one I’ll admit.
I wasn’t always into games. I mean, I grew up with my older brothers obsessing over Halo and Fable. I even gave those games a shot. It wasn’t until a few years ago that I ventured from console games to PC.
I have a select few games that I love and always return to, but I’ll just pick one for now.

Image: Article on ESO expansion

Elder Scrolls Online. For anyone who has played Skyrim, this game is for you! Or not. Just saying, it’s pretty fun. There’s nothing like sneaking around as a thief or fighting dragons. I’ve played a few MMORPG’s and this game has to be one of my favorites. The environment is beautiful, the voice acting is great, and the game play is super fun.

But that’s just my opinion. Don’t hate on me if you disagree.
Click here for more info on the game!

Something I’ve Learned

How to give and take.
Wow, is it important to know when to pick and choose your battles. And that goes for pretty much everything in life. Work life, social life, family life. Knowing when it’s time to step aside, put your pride aside, and work things through is kind of essential. Otherwise, you or whoever else involved end up butting heads and most likely end up nowhere.
The choice is yours though. You get to decide what you take a stand on and what are willing to compromise.
I’ve come to a fork in the road recently. It honestly feels like that too. That I have only two directions to go. I either keep quite and let things happen that hurt me or I speak up and risk the chance of losing what I love. I know it doesn’t have to be this way. There could be a third option. One, where both roads are combined.
I’m learning to navigate these roads though and it’s a process!

Face Cleanser

One thing that I’ve noticed since starting antidepressants, is the change in my skin. Yes, I had the odd pimple here or there growing up, but never to this extent. And by that, I mean my jawline has turned into a war zone. An ugly, nasty, bloody (truth) war zone that sometimes enters back territory.
I’ve definitely kicked in to high gear on my skincare regimen. One of my new, favorite products, is Aveeno’s Clear Complexion Pads.
Firstly, Aveeno makes some amazing and gentle products for hair and skin. And secondly, these face pads feel super nice. My skin always feels great after using one.

I believe it works so nicely due to the salicylic acid in it. For those who don’t know, salicylic acid is a key ingredient in acne prevention and treatment. It’s molecular structure helps it slip past those nasty oils and clear out your pores.

If you’re looking for a new product to try, maybe this one can help you as it has helped me.

I believe you can find this product in most stores. I got mine from Walgreen’s.
Click here for link.

No cat photos you ask. Why yes, I failed epically this month to capture a non-blurry photo of my fur babies. But fear not, I will most definitely make up for it next month.
Once again, hope you enjoy and check out the links!

*Always thoroughly research products to make sure they’re the best fit for you*

There’s no excuse for being a jerk

There’s something I’ve come to terms with. And that is, I can be an a** at times.
Okay, I get crabby when I haven’t eaten anything all day and my head feels like it’s going to explode, so I snap at close ones. Fine, I’m feeling hopeless and my self-worth is in the trash, so I make others around me feel guilty. Alright, I ate something bad and I feel like Satan is being summoned from my no-no hole, so I blame someone else for my poor culinary choices.

No.
It’s not okay. It’s not fine. It’s not alright.
Just because something feels like it’s gone horribly wrong or maybe something did go horribly wrong, that’s no excuse to act like a class act jerk.

NO EXCUSE!

You can try to fluff it up or try to validate your actions as much as you want. But at the end of the day, you’re most likely not wanting to accept your flaws and faults.
Sure, no one wants to come out the “bad” guy. No one wants to feel like they did harm. But sometimes you did do something hurtful or you did act out inappropriately.
If you can realize and take responsibility for your actions, then good for you!

Photo by Mathias Arlund on Unsplash

I relied on my depression. When I gave my partner the quiet treatment, it was because I was in a depressive episode. When I got snippy and seemed agitated, it was just a symptom. Okay, so some of those things may be caused by my unstable mental health, but that doesn’t give me the right to throw them out there as a way to excuse myself.
I am pretty high functioning, which makes my depression/anxiety/and possible bipolar disorder seem less than. I’m well aware of my issues. I know what triggers me. I understand my symptoms. Do they sometimes get the better of me? Sure. Should I use that as a reason to excuse the hurt I caused the people I love? Hell no.

Now, this is my personal take on it.
I believe, for the most part, people who struggle with their mental health are aware. Some may deny it. Some may justify their feelings and actions as things everyone goes through. But I feel, that on some level, they know.
Just like I knew. I normalized what I was going through because other people seemed to go through similar things. I told myself my depression and anxiety and feelings were just things everyone went through. It took me years to accept that maybe, just maybe, my brain chemicals were a little off.

At first, I was like “WAHOO!” There’s finally a name to it. There’s a definition of what I’m going through. I can finally relax.
And then I realized, just because I can put a name to my wacky behaviors, doesn’t mean they are okay.

Now, everyone is different. Every case of mental illness is different. Some people are high functioning like me and some are debilitated by what afflicts them. Some people may have learning difficulties and may not understand “normal” social cues.
It gets difficult then, to know when it’s acceptable to let things slide. Even I struggle with that.

I know I am not perfect. I’m not meant to be. Will I slip up at times? Probably. Will I use my depression as a crutch for acting like a cranky b*tch? No, I don’t plan on it.
I know what’s acceptable and what’s not acceptable when it comes to my mental health. My depression and anxiety are a huge part of me, but they do not define me.

And I am no better than anyone else because I now understand what’s going on with me. I am no better than anyone because I accept my weaknesses. I am not above anyone else. If I do something wrong or hurtful, even if I don’t realize it until someone says something, I will take a step back and take a look at the situation. I am not stubborn and unbending enough, that I won’t accept that maybe I messed up.

If I messed up. I messed up. And I don’t have the right to act like a baby or say hurtful things, just because someone doesn’t agree with my actions or views.

But, that’s just me.
Yes, I can be a queen beeatch.
Is that okay though? Nope.


Article: It’s a Mental Illness, Not an Excuse to Be an A**hole

I will be the stars for you

Love me.

Love me because I laugh at stupid jokes. Love me because I talk about Greek food with such passion. Love me because I light up the room. Love me because I can continue to get up and fight for another day.

Love me because I am not broken or a thing to fix. Love me for all the pieces that I am.

Cherish me. Hold me tightly. And love me.

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